Hi guys,
I know that it's been a long time that I blogged and I have been bragging about how everything will be changed. Recently my crush said unto me to be honest for a week. Then I argued that one can not live an adult life without lying and my best defense was an awkward Jim Carrey movie and its Bollywood Ctrl+V from our favorite (?) Govinda. I politely asked her to be practical as decisions made in an instance die in an instance. Commitment comes out of necessity and not determination. At best I was using my word play to escape the inevitable truth that I can't stick to my commitments.
Then 10th Dec 2015 happened. I probably lost my exam in ECS which is arguably the nightmare of many people. Now, I had prepared expecting a fair question paper and being "honest", I didn't prepare that well either. I was knocked into my senses and as always I wanted to declare to the world that I will be back or I will change from now or some crap like that like I always say and do. But this time, my crush is monitoring me. Let me explain even though you practically understood like 95% of the story.
You see, I have lost all my friends to this menace of being supremacist. I had read Mein Kampf when I was in high school and that really influenced me, a mistake that I won't repeat with my child in future. Moving on, from that point, I used humor as my defense. I try to laugh more and as I guess I've told you in one previous blog, I kinda conquered my anger bursts. My crush apparently saw this too and she asked me if I could challenge that energy somewhere else. In this case something else. I was practically skeptical and I was genuinely thinking if she was directing me towards intercourse sessions to put as gently as possible. Well, living in a dirt bag of a college hostel, I got corrupted there for a while. In a train of thought, I just realized that the 40 year old virgin and the Batman Begins movie released in the same year. I am actually feeling the stark difference in the cinematography. Ok, coming back to the stream, apparently she was not asking about intercourse.
Fine, I said unto myself and I asked her what she wanted me to ask. I mean, I wanted to ask her out but she wanted me to want to ask her a different question. The question in point being that I could be productive for 24 hours and 7 days a week. It sounds exactly like what I am doing, I thought. She had her own thoughts. She wanted me to record the events in a little book so that I can feel accomplished. On other note, every day I meet her I feel accomplished but you know what she meant. I reacted, let's say, unconventionally and it was awkward. She just wanted me to try for like just one week and habituate if it felt good.
Now, you guys know me. I start well and take a dump on my own resolutions and stuff. Quite frankly, I know that this is going to fail in the same way. Then again, this is the first time, she asked me to do something. I feel obligated and that's why, I am going to be productive starting today 13th Dec 2015 2:18 AM IST. I swear to God that if I succeed in this, I am going to ask her out, for reals this time.
Yeah and also shout out to my dumb racket which is good but has a few threads in its head a bit messed up. Please feel free to tell it go fuck itself because even after knowing how I play, it refuses to understand. I am sick and tired of being the listening person. After all I am Santosh and its racket. I guess, I lost my value to a dumb racket.
See ya
Horopter
I know that it's been a long time that I blogged and I have been bragging about how everything will be changed. Recently my crush said unto me to be honest for a week. Then I argued that one can not live an adult life without lying and my best defense was an awkward Jim Carrey movie and its Bollywood Ctrl+V from our favorite (?) Govinda. I politely asked her to be practical as decisions made in an instance die in an instance. Commitment comes out of necessity and not determination. At best I was using my word play to escape the inevitable truth that I can't stick to my commitments.
Then 10th Dec 2015 happened. I probably lost my exam in ECS which is arguably the nightmare of many people. Now, I had prepared expecting a fair question paper and being "honest", I didn't prepare that well either. I was knocked into my senses and as always I wanted to declare to the world that I will be back or I will change from now or some crap like that like I always say and do. But this time, my crush is monitoring me. Let me explain even though you practically understood like 95% of the story.
You see, I have lost all my friends to this menace of being supremacist. I had read Mein Kampf when I was in high school and that really influenced me, a mistake that I won't repeat with my child in future. Moving on, from that point, I used humor as my defense. I try to laugh more and as I guess I've told you in one previous blog, I kinda conquered my anger bursts. My crush apparently saw this too and she asked me if I could challenge that energy somewhere else. In this case something else. I was practically skeptical and I was genuinely thinking if she was directing me towards intercourse sessions to put as gently as possible. Well, living in a dirt bag of a college hostel, I got corrupted there for a while. In a train of thought, I just realized that the 40 year old virgin and the Batman Begins movie released in the same year. I am actually feeling the stark difference in the cinematography. Ok, coming back to the stream, apparently she was not asking about intercourse.
Fine, I said unto myself and I asked her what she wanted me to ask. I mean, I wanted to ask her out but she wanted me to want to ask her a different question. The question in point being that I could be productive for 24 hours and 7 days a week. It sounds exactly like what I am doing, I thought. She had her own thoughts. She wanted me to record the events in a little book so that I can feel accomplished. On other note, every day I meet her I feel accomplished but you know what she meant. I reacted, let's say, unconventionally and it was awkward. She just wanted me to try for like just one week and habituate if it felt good.
Now, you guys know me. I start well and take a dump on my own resolutions and stuff. Quite frankly, I know that this is going to fail in the same way. Then again, this is the first time, she asked me to do something. I feel obligated and that's why, I am going to be productive starting today 13th Dec 2015 2:18 AM IST. I swear to God that if I succeed in this, I am going to ask her out, for reals this time.
Yeah and also shout out to my dumb racket which is good but has a few threads in its head a bit messed up. Please feel free to tell it go fuck itself because even after knowing how I play, it refuses to understand. I am sick and tired of being the listening person. After all I am Santosh and its racket. I guess, I lost my value to a dumb racket.
See ya
Horopter
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