What does a person who literally has everything need? Well, my philosophy makes that person automatically the God or at least the person who has achieved salvation. So, does that mean that others are having a level of insufficiency? The answer is undeniably yes. We all are somehow have that gaping wound of a hole to fill. From an evolutionary standpoint, we just try to be a better version of ourselves. There are different factors stopping us from really doing that exact same thing. Starting with laziness, we have a plethora of situations or "accidents" to prevent us from doing things and they end with juvenoia. Juvenoia is when we become a part of a scenario that prevents others from being better. One should google it out to know more and one can start with the Vsauce video. These factors are not always bad and not every time good. We have a choice and choices under certain contexts lead to different outcomes. Thus we generate diversity. We then group with people with near similar outcomes and you know, we formed society and culture. As a group we can win more than we individually could but then again, will team work fill that gap of not being able to achieve personally?
I am not writing this in abstract and trust me I am going somewhere with this when I say love is a delusion. See, things start as an attraction and based on our previous choices, we develop infatuation with some of them. We expect our zeal to get reflected in our infatuation but that's not always the case. We tend to promise love, sometimes too soon but it might not get replied back. Now the question is how do you know that its love? It might be an obsession. Scientifically, all pleasures are a variation on dopamine. I could literally make you like eating your least favorite food by releasing dopamine at regulated rate. So, is that it? We are just a bunch of dopamine generators and consumers. It feels so off and unnatural. I know that I felt that I was better off not knowing it as a fact. That got me thinking, what differentiates a love from an obsession? All I had to start with is that take any two things and they are different in at least one aspect for sure.
I went to take non scientific approach as scientific answer might ruin my basic perceptions and I am not ready to take it. I compared my obsession with planning and my perceived love for, well you know who (definitely not a Harry Potter reference). The answer became clear. I think about planning when I am in a problem but I think about her every passing second. She just doesn't know it yet. That is a vague answer to the question. I went more intimate. Would I be more devastated having my plan failed or would it be at the time I realize she is gone out of my life for good? Again, I'd be devastated without her. The answer illustrated the concept based on the outcome but it's still unclear and gives a vibe of bad comparison. So, finally I asked myself, given a day to live, would I plan to live further or spend whole day with her. This is when I realized I loved her. I'd definitely and undoubtedly choose to plan live further.
"You bastard", one might say. Listen me out. I just can't leave her side. I want to be with her all time. I'd obviously try to live longer with her. My primal instincts kicked in and love became merciless to me. She doesn't know that I couldn't move on and after a string of failed attempts, I've realized that I'd be devastated on the day she has gone for good from my life. Why doesn't it pain me today? Why doesn't the mathematics scare me? It's because I know about the insufficiency factor. I know that I have a set of insufficiency preventing me from reaching her. I know that I could never get over her but the fact that she is happy and content, fills the wound of her not being with me. I am happy now that I am still trying to impress her.
Consider 9, okay now 9.9 and then 9.99 and 9.999 and 9.9999 and continue infinitely. Let that final number be 9.9_. Any person in their right mind would say that once you stop adding 9's after decimal, it will still be less than 10. There seems to be an inherent insufficiency. Mathematics proves that if you keep trying, you'll reach 10. In fact 9.9_ is 10 in disguise. Poetically, the process of trying and trying may not give you your desired option but the path itself is the destination. No matter what insufficiency you have, try to make your life better by removing obstacles and iterate with intention of achieving, you'll have achieved before you know it. Worrying about something gets us nowhere, acting towards goal is literally the goal itself. Perhaps in this way insufficiency is good.
I am not writing this in abstract and trust me I am going somewhere with this when I say love is a delusion. See, things start as an attraction and based on our previous choices, we develop infatuation with some of them. We expect our zeal to get reflected in our infatuation but that's not always the case. We tend to promise love, sometimes too soon but it might not get replied back. Now the question is how do you know that its love? It might be an obsession. Scientifically, all pleasures are a variation on dopamine. I could literally make you like eating your least favorite food by releasing dopamine at regulated rate. So, is that it? We are just a bunch of dopamine generators and consumers. It feels so off and unnatural. I know that I felt that I was better off not knowing it as a fact. That got me thinking, what differentiates a love from an obsession? All I had to start with is that take any two things and they are different in at least one aspect for sure.
I went to take non scientific approach as scientific answer might ruin my basic perceptions and I am not ready to take it. I compared my obsession with planning and my perceived love for, well you know who (definitely not a Harry Potter reference). The answer became clear. I think about planning when I am in a problem but I think about her every passing second. She just doesn't know it yet. That is a vague answer to the question. I went more intimate. Would I be more devastated having my plan failed or would it be at the time I realize she is gone out of my life for good? Again, I'd be devastated without her. The answer illustrated the concept based on the outcome but it's still unclear and gives a vibe of bad comparison. So, finally I asked myself, given a day to live, would I plan to live further or spend whole day with her. This is when I realized I loved her. I'd definitely and undoubtedly choose to plan live further.
"You bastard", one might say. Listen me out. I just can't leave her side. I want to be with her all time. I'd obviously try to live longer with her. My primal instincts kicked in and love became merciless to me. She doesn't know that I couldn't move on and after a string of failed attempts, I've realized that I'd be devastated on the day she has gone for good from my life. Why doesn't it pain me today? Why doesn't the mathematics scare me? It's because I know about the insufficiency factor. I know that I have a set of insufficiency preventing me from reaching her. I know that I could never get over her but the fact that she is happy and content, fills the wound of her not being with me. I am happy now that I am still trying to impress her.
Consider 9, okay now 9.9 and then 9.99 and 9.999 and 9.9999 and continue infinitely. Let that final number be 9.9_. Any person in their right mind would say that once you stop adding 9's after decimal, it will still be less than 10. There seems to be an inherent insufficiency. Mathematics proves that if you keep trying, you'll reach 10. In fact 9.9_ is 10 in disguise. Poetically, the process of trying and trying may not give you your desired option but the path itself is the destination. No matter what insufficiency you have, try to make your life better by removing obstacles and iterate with intention of achieving, you'll have achieved before you know it. Worrying about something gets us nowhere, acting towards goal is literally the goal itself. Perhaps in this way insufficiency is good.
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