Today has been a blast. I saw myself being a part of something big. It's good that I am learning but does that learning last? For example, we all read in our school that discipline is an important trait to be learnt from ants. Are we really that disciplined in every work that we do? There comes an age when we also learn the usage of ant-kill. We supposedly are a greater life form than ants. Don't get me wrong, I know for a fact that we are evolved. Does it give us the right to kill them? I mean we don't eat them. the question is not about sustenance. We tend to kill them none the less. There is an option to distract them out of our house but nope, we kill them. What have we learnt then? We don't feel sorry and we don't acknowledge their team effort. Had it been the case, we would all be leaders. It's the butterfly effect. Small things we unlearn can prevent our progress. It doesn't mean that learning is delusion or knowledge is delusion. The delusion we all have is that we retain our learning.
This can answer another question of why we have so many incarnations of God or manifestations of divinity. The purpose, context and application of knowledge are three parameters that literally change with time. People need examples, different test cases to deal with. Sometimes it takes a person and sometimes it takes an incarnation to guide us. Popularity in public is one kind of abstract hunger we have. Some people forsake their lives to set an example. Most of the times, they do it for popularity. Charity is a good initiative but people form different sets of trusts or banners in the name of awareness. Awareness is the sister of inquisitiveness. If you want people to be aware, raise a question. These people are setting examples of some kind. They are encouraging other set of people to do the same. There is no transparency in deed or workflow, you just trust them. Charity is a selfless deed and requires no publicity. People do it, for they don't know that ever lasting popularity is a delusion.
I am not going to enlist the types of delusions but aforementioned are the delusions we have. They are nothing but the tip of the iceberg. I have an unusual delusion, satisfaction. I tend to be satisfied sooner than others. I am afraid of experimentation. Now, I wasn't like this before 2010. The only thing I was afraid of was public speaking. Okay snakes and ghosts are still up there but you know what I mean. The other day, I met the topper again and I saw his approach towards the problem given. He wasn't only solving the given problem. He was understanding why the problem was solved in a different way by others and, he tried to simplify the problem beyond the given one. That piqued my interest. What was that stopping me from doing that? I was in fact preoccupied with just finishing off the list of problems that I never realized to stop and feel the beauty of the problem. After mirroring what he did, it doesn't look that beautiful anymore. Probably, his curiosity made him do that but without him knowing, he accidentally learnt more. I was, on the other hand satisfied.
One fact I did forget is that sometimes, the tools of a sculptor, define him. Sure they define sculptures but the sculptor? I found about it recently and I was taken aback. Stay with me here. In my first year of engineering, everyone got into android mode. By that I mean, started developing things. Some really rehashed available work and mostly people came up with some rather interesting stuff. My laptop has 3GB RAM and that's not enough juice to run things smoothly. I lost an opportunity to learn. My other friends had a luck factor their as new laptops came with new specs. Topper, however stayed silent until after two years, he unleashed a project that was pretty useful and get this, very easy. Literally anyone could have made it in a couple of days. I still don't know what makes it so special. He got all the attention while the fairly advanced technology deployed by Mr. Sam didn't get that much. That got me thinking, had I gotten an opportunity to learn android that early, would I make an app that elegant? May be or may be not. I don't know. It's like that time I missed an opportunity to prove myself to Ms. Angel, the one which I probably won't get again. The thing that pains me is the missed opportunity and frankly, it was because of the fact that the tools weren't sufficient.
Now you may say that a bad workman blames his tools but seriously? Give a doctor an axe and ask him to perform a bypass surgery. It just doesn't fit. I have now decided to upgrade the proverbial armor. I could have taken a macbook for instance. I will get a better performance and longevity but I don't wanna lose familiarity. I may be wrong now but I am sure that I will put the tool to good use for all tools wear one day. Speaking of opportunities, I know I have postponed gate exam stuff for too long. I have resolved multiple times in vain. I just hope that there won't be a blog post here speaking of this missed opportunity. Perhaps it's my delusion that I am capable of cracking the exam but I like to have such delusions.
This can answer another question of why we have so many incarnations of God or manifestations of divinity. The purpose, context and application of knowledge are three parameters that literally change with time. People need examples, different test cases to deal with. Sometimes it takes a person and sometimes it takes an incarnation to guide us. Popularity in public is one kind of abstract hunger we have. Some people forsake their lives to set an example. Most of the times, they do it for popularity. Charity is a good initiative but people form different sets of trusts or banners in the name of awareness. Awareness is the sister of inquisitiveness. If you want people to be aware, raise a question. These people are setting examples of some kind. They are encouraging other set of people to do the same. There is no transparency in deed or workflow, you just trust them. Charity is a selfless deed and requires no publicity. People do it, for they don't know that ever lasting popularity is a delusion.
I am not going to enlist the types of delusions but aforementioned are the delusions we have. They are nothing but the tip of the iceberg. I have an unusual delusion, satisfaction. I tend to be satisfied sooner than others. I am afraid of experimentation. Now, I wasn't like this before 2010. The only thing I was afraid of was public speaking. Okay snakes and ghosts are still up there but you know what I mean. The other day, I met the topper again and I saw his approach towards the problem given. He wasn't only solving the given problem. He was understanding why the problem was solved in a different way by others and, he tried to simplify the problem beyond the given one. That piqued my interest. What was that stopping me from doing that? I was in fact preoccupied with just finishing off the list of problems that I never realized to stop and feel the beauty of the problem. After mirroring what he did, it doesn't look that beautiful anymore. Probably, his curiosity made him do that but without him knowing, he accidentally learnt more. I was, on the other hand satisfied.
One fact I did forget is that sometimes, the tools of a sculptor, define him. Sure they define sculptures but the sculptor? I found about it recently and I was taken aback. Stay with me here. In my first year of engineering, everyone got into android mode. By that I mean, started developing things. Some really rehashed available work and mostly people came up with some rather interesting stuff. My laptop has 3GB RAM and that's not enough juice to run things smoothly. I lost an opportunity to learn. My other friends had a luck factor their as new laptops came with new specs. Topper, however stayed silent until after two years, he unleashed a project that was pretty useful and get this, very easy. Literally anyone could have made it in a couple of days. I still don't know what makes it so special. He got all the attention while the fairly advanced technology deployed by Mr. Sam didn't get that much. That got me thinking, had I gotten an opportunity to learn android that early, would I make an app that elegant? May be or may be not. I don't know. It's like that time I missed an opportunity to prove myself to Ms. Angel, the one which I probably won't get again. The thing that pains me is the missed opportunity and frankly, it was because of the fact that the tools weren't sufficient.
Now you may say that a bad workman blames his tools but seriously? Give a doctor an axe and ask him to perform a bypass surgery. It just doesn't fit. I have now decided to upgrade the proverbial armor. I could have taken a macbook for instance. I will get a better performance and longevity but I don't wanna lose familiarity. I may be wrong now but I am sure that I will put the tool to good use for all tools wear one day. Speaking of opportunities, I know I have postponed gate exam stuff for too long. I have resolved multiple times in vain. I just hope that there won't be a blog post here speaking of this missed opportunity. Perhaps it's my delusion that I am capable of cracking the exam but I like to have such delusions.
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