Well, it's been too long without a blog post mainly because my partners were not so "in requirement of internet". I'd appreciate that except for the fact that I lost my most important tool of success right before the test of skill. Yeah, I am talking about ZS associates. It's a great company. I am not going into the specifics mainly because I signed on an agreement not to reveal too much and I abide my my words when I feel like it. I lost internet and the ability to revise the questions a day before the test. I was scared if I had missed anything. Fortunately, the process went well and I got selected.
There is still something that really bothers me though. Even this time, I got selected for my past. All the work that I have done, my projects or my take on others' projects. Only they helped me get through the process. I have realized that though I am capable of bringing out ecstatic answers to complex problems, I am failing at the things I am supposed to know, and in this case, it is algorithms. Data structures is still a bit rusty but I had no clue about algorithms. Again fortunately, I had explained them that I only learn things when they are necessary. It occurred to me, I always have a back up plan. How could I miss something so simple? What if I needed to solve a problem and I don't have a solution? It was the question asked in a less personal way or more formal way to me by the interviewer. That question really took a toll on me. I am unprepared for the worst and frankly, that's not my style. Suddenly a bell rang in my brain. I realized that my laziness got the best of me. All the interviews before flashed in a second. I had failed all of whom I lost because of my laziness. It's not that I am less capable, it's because I am less prepared. I had concentrated where I wanted me to be needed and less where I am needed.
I expected Mr. Guns and Mr. Python to get selected but unfortunately Ms. Ghost got selected. Appearing in several companies has really paid off. I am really worried that I will have to work with a ghost for the rest of my life. I better kill myself before I see that day. I mean there is no chance I'd meet Ms. Angel through her. Speaking of which, how come angels and ghosts become friends? It just beats me. Then again, I am Shrek. Who am I to judge? Probably ghosts and trolls scare each other. I don't know. Good news is Deep got selected, Iskcon got selected and of course Dalims got selected. As for me, I couldn't have made it through this far if Pushy didn't lend his laptop. I don't know his perspective about me but I'd be grateful to anyone who'd trust me like he does. Dalims certainly won't trust me. I am agnostic on Iskcon's opinion. Deep, well... I have never spoken to him much. See, I am incapable of a social life that is normal to these people because that deals with keeping secrets and being friends... simultaneously. I just can't do that. So I regard them as acquaintances. My policy with my acquaintances is to talk to them when necessary. That's the way it's gonna be.
It's at this point that miss Ms. Angel. She blocked me everywhere so seeing her pictures is thrown out of the window. I am not a creep, I am just socially uncomfortable. Angels tend to seek physical beauty and me being a troll, I am incapable of having one. It's fine. I have tried exploring the other opportunities but non-Angel girls aren't ready for love. First off, it's tough to get my type of girl and second, they are either not ready or it happens to be Ms. Angel. What wouldn't I give for a cup of coffee with her? My job, my money, my skills, my life (all of which are pathetic BTW)? Everything? Sure! Just a cup of coffee with her and I'd be ready to lose everything.
I am always inspired by the love story of Srinivasa at Tirumala temple. That's really idealistic but the sole simplicity of love is fantastic. No offense but the medieval love stories and their tragic endings really make me gag. Is there a subliminal message not to love in those stories? Movies have really corrupted that idea so to speak. Devdas should really get a life. Romeo doesn't need Sherlock Holmes kind of skills to tell if Juliet is dead. They are a bunch of fools for all I know. That's bad for health kind of love. I mean look at Padmavati, she hated the guts of Srinivasa to ask her hand in marriage. They fought for one whole year. It doesn't make Srinivasa a creep or desperate fellow. He's deeply in love with her and I say she was worth fighting for, even when the fight is between them. I mean I could never have such a love with Ms. Angel but still, it's good to have bells ringing.
There is still something that really bothers me though. Even this time, I got selected for my past. All the work that I have done, my projects or my take on others' projects. Only they helped me get through the process. I have realized that though I am capable of bringing out ecstatic answers to complex problems, I am failing at the things I am supposed to know, and in this case, it is algorithms. Data structures is still a bit rusty but I had no clue about algorithms. Again fortunately, I had explained them that I only learn things when they are necessary. It occurred to me, I always have a back up plan. How could I miss something so simple? What if I needed to solve a problem and I don't have a solution? It was the question asked in a less personal way or more formal way to me by the interviewer. That question really took a toll on me. I am unprepared for the worst and frankly, that's not my style. Suddenly a bell rang in my brain. I realized that my laziness got the best of me. All the interviews before flashed in a second. I had failed all of whom I lost because of my laziness. It's not that I am less capable, it's because I am less prepared. I had concentrated where I wanted me to be needed and less where I am needed.
I expected Mr. Guns and Mr. Python to get selected but unfortunately Ms. Ghost got selected. Appearing in several companies has really paid off. I am really worried that I will have to work with a ghost for the rest of my life. I better kill myself before I see that day. I mean there is no chance I'd meet Ms. Angel through her. Speaking of which, how come angels and ghosts become friends? It just beats me. Then again, I am Shrek. Who am I to judge? Probably ghosts and trolls scare each other. I don't know. Good news is Deep got selected, Iskcon got selected and of course Dalims got selected. As for me, I couldn't have made it through this far if Pushy didn't lend his laptop. I don't know his perspective about me but I'd be grateful to anyone who'd trust me like he does. Dalims certainly won't trust me. I am agnostic on Iskcon's opinion. Deep, well... I have never spoken to him much. See, I am incapable of a social life that is normal to these people because that deals with keeping secrets and being friends... simultaneously. I just can't do that. So I regard them as acquaintances. My policy with my acquaintances is to talk to them when necessary. That's the way it's gonna be.
It's at this point that miss Ms. Angel. She blocked me everywhere so seeing her pictures is thrown out of the window. I am not a creep, I am just socially uncomfortable. Angels tend to seek physical beauty and me being a troll, I am incapable of having one. It's fine. I have tried exploring the other opportunities but non-Angel girls aren't ready for love. First off, it's tough to get my type of girl and second, they are either not ready or it happens to be Ms. Angel. What wouldn't I give for a cup of coffee with her? My job, my money, my skills, my life (all of which are pathetic BTW)? Everything? Sure! Just a cup of coffee with her and I'd be ready to lose everything.
I am always inspired by the love story of Srinivasa at Tirumala temple. That's really idealistic but the sole simplicity of love is fantastic. No offense but the medieval love stories and their tragic endings really make me gag. Is there a subliminal message not to love in those stories? Movies have really corrupted that idea so to speak. Devdas should really get a life. Romeo doesn't need Sherlock Holmes kind of skills to tell if Juliet is dead. They are a bunch of fools for all I know. That's bad for health kind of love. I mean look at Padmavati, she hated the guts of Srinivasa to ask her hand in marriage. They fought for one whole year. It doesn't make Srinivasa a creep or desperate fellow. He's deeply in love with her and I say she was worth fighting for, even when the fight is between them. I mean I could never have such a love with Ms. Angel but still, it's good to have bells ringing.
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